UPDATED/ Day 31: May 17, 2018
TODAY WAS JUST……. AWESOME
I have been able to move my neck side to side and up and down better than I could before surgery. While it’s limited, it’s already a successful endeavor and I couldn’t be more thankful!
Day 4 of Back to Work
I had a doctor’s appointment this morning, and spent the afternoon at the jobsite. I was on my feet from 10:30-3:00 today. I’m exhausted, but it’s the best exhausted I’ve ever felt! It means progress!
I got to see a homeowner and we went over some details! I was welcomed back to the site by many of our trade partners and it was so special to me. I got to show off my Frankenstein incision on the back of my neck and they all handled it great! 🤢😊 it was just great being back in my comfort zone! I felt almost normal!
But, the best part of my day was spending time with Judy. I can’t drive, so I needed a driver and she agreed to be that person! So cool getting to spend time with her and work at the same time! While I was meeting with the owner and trades, she took a nap in my car! We got to catch up, too! Being in her presence always makes me smile. We have a good time together. She also walked through my door with some beautiful flowers 🌺. All around good Joo-Joo!
After I got home, I got set up on my work desk and then evaluated how I felt after being so busy physically, and I felt ok. Pain, but not worse! I worked until about 6, and I’ve been chillin!
As the day has gone on, my muscles have let me know they worked more than usual today! I found myself straining to be a passenger seat driver while Judy was driving and when I realized I was doing it, I had to just accept that I wasn’t driving and that my neck brace will come off soon enough. Straining to drive hurts. The purpose of a neck brace is to keep your head from moving. Apparently, this concept was lost on me today until my neck was hurting. Lol…. Let go and Let Judy!!!
My sister touched on something in a comment about me being private. In some ways, that’s true. I wanted to hide my physical condition because I didn’t want to be judged by my possible limitations and I acted like I had no limits. I paid for that at times, but I wouldn’t change anything. I kept it quiet for years. People knew I had a bad back and neck, and that I had a genetic disease, but, I was quiet about how severe it was…. I’m a pretty open person when asked or if I feel comfortable. What you see is what you get. But, I was hiding my pain and how serious it was because I knew that my disease had nothing to do with my ability to do my job. I now feel more confident because I had the surgery. I’ll be stronger than ever. My stubbornness has been my attribute in this particular case. I just wasn’t going to let my physical condition to get the best of me.
I knew when it was time to have the surgery. I could physically feel my bones rubbing each other as I moved. I could feel where the popping was happening in my neck and put my finger on it. Every single move, turn, step….. pure pain. I chose to stay in pain. I don’t recommend it. It changes who you are. You can’t be your best self when you’re in pain all the time. It’s just too hard. I did it, but, I would have gotten help sooner had I known some of the losses I encountered by waiting.
I was vividly aware that i had to take care of it and talk about it. So, I began my journey to surgery. I started in August of 2017, and in April of 2018, the deed was done! I have needed surgery for 4 years. I just had to wait until it got scary to do something about it. DON’T DO THAT! It’s not worth it. Your health is way more important than your ego, your fear or your job. Let me say that again.
YOUR HEALTH IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN YOUR EGO, YOUR FEAR AND YOUR JOB!
I still can’t swallow, but my barium test is tomorrow morning and that will give us some answers. I want to be able to eat normally again. I want to laugh, talk, sing and burp. I had a pretty significant coughing episode today. It got so bad, my throat started whistling. It was bizarre. There’s nothing weirder than coughing and your throat whistling. I’ve always wanted to be able to whistle, but not through my throat. 😳
Overall TODAY was a complete success! I’m tired, grateful and excited about the coming days! I’m going to continue to take my recovery one day at a time and make sure I don’t overdo it. I don’t want to go backwards, but I also think that if I don’t push it, how will I know my limits? So, that’s my philosophy. You can’t move forward if you don’t push ahead on your journey. If you wait, nothing changes.
I want to give a special shout out to a set of parents who are hoping for good health for their child. I will continue to send good vibes your way. I appreciate your support and kindness and thank you for sharing your fears with me. I can’t say what the future holds, but I know she’s in the right hands with such loving parents. It’s so hard parenting a grown child, but you’re killin it! Love you guys! ❤️❤️
THANK YOU to those who helped me in some way today! Jamie, Mom, Judy, Andrew, Rod, Ken, Mr. T, Meghan, Wes, the Steve’s, Lupe, HFR Staff, Daisa, Zoltan, Kevin, Deea, Dad, Michael, Chandra, Jordan, Kelsey, Susan, Clayton, Sandie, Dori. A lot of people make my days worthy and I’m lucky to have such an amazing support base! I feel like I’m forgetting someone every day. You all mean so much to me.
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